Christmas Time

December

What a month to be in when your not feeling well, or sad or lonely already.  Tough time to be alone without family, without anyone, waking up alone, going to bed alone, every single day for who knows how long?  Been 16 years since my divorce, four years since my kids have moved out, and it still sucks being alone.  

Holidays are to be shared with loved ones, connection, glasses of wine together, hot chocolate with fires and snow, all the things we did as a family, I did with my daughters.  My son wasn't around us so much even when they got older, for some reason the girls kept giving him a hard time, about who knows what.  Really nothing, just sibling stuff, but it affected where he lived.  He could live at his Dad's without the annoyance of them on his case as they finally lived with me.  

Now I am here.  Where is here?  Hoboken, NJ for now.  I moved from the ocean to this city, because my two children live here now, and I don't want to drive over an hour and fifteen to see them, any longer, and for years to come.  

I have no attachments down the shore, except for the ocean and me!  My lease was up and I asked myself, where do I want to settle for awhile, now that my children are settling somewhere, my daughter is engaged, and they have a dog business in the town.  My car stopped working last Christmas, and I didn't want to get stuck with another monthly payment for a car, and thought again of moving to where my children are.  I don't see my daughter very often, but even when I do, at least I don't have to drive anywhere!  

I don't understand so many things, especially why I am where I am in my life alone, all alone, loosing my children, my family, my husband, my ex's family who were my best friends, and even my family, who no one calls and invites me anywhere!  I really have no one in my life for connection, love and support, it's like no one knows, nor cares!  

I have been in for days, no one calls, no one even knows I am here, or what I am doing. Boy, it can get seriously depressing, and hard to get out of sometimes, like now.  I am suppose to remember the crying is releasing, releasing emotions.  If I can remember that during those times, it will help somewhat, but you have to remember.

Solution, get out, get up, change direction, do something else to switch my energy.  Maybe try to go to gratitude, take deep breaths, meditate, do some yoga or Qi Gong.  Sometimes doing anything helps, to take you mind off the pain, sadness.  I also love mantras, and have so many I love, and they do help.  The trick for me is to realize I do have a choice, to be aware of that.  To even stop and focus on breathing helps to calm my body down, as I tend to tighten up when I am upset, causing my body pain.  

I wish I could say it has been easy for me, but I surely hope it's been easy for you!  The younger generation are pure light, here to shine so bright, helping to heal us and the earth by just "being" here!  We all are here for a reason, and have a major purpose, even if it's being, as in being, you are out in the world functioning, sending everyone your higher, loving energy, uplifting all of us!

Why are we here?

Wow, truly can not believe how fast time goes, although they say time does not exist!
When you understand that you are truly enlightened!

I have been learning so much being here, in Hoboken.  Realizing so much about myself, my life, trying to find answers to all the why questions I ask on a daily basis!

Why do I have to be alone now?
Why did I have to get a divorce?
Why couldn't we work it out?
Why do I have to live each day without my family around?
What the hell are we truly here for?
Why do/did so many of us have to suffer so much??

Why, why, why??

Will I ever get answers?  They say you will if you ask, or some say, no, you will never get those answers.  

I have to believe I will, and have to understand acceptance.  Accepting that so much shit happened to me, and my children, and to forgive.  Forgive myself, and him, for the past shit.  Accepting it's over, the only thing I can to now is be the best person I can be, today, now.  

To love one another, whoever that may be, to honor one another as I do myself, and to connect!  Connnect, connect, connect.  For me, yes, I need it lots!  But not like most people, the ones that can never be alone, and never are alone.  I love my alone time, it's where I recharge.   But, I have too much alone time, where I get sad and lonely being alone, with no one to connect with.  Even friends don't call and ask me to do things with them, ever.  So you could say I don't have friends like that!  Only the kind you talk to on the phone.  Just great, and just sad, both at the same time!

So, then, where is everyone?  Where are all of my connections?  My loved ones who want to be around me, and want me in their world, their reality?  Family, anyone?

Guess not, as they are very few, even my children rarely wanting to see me.  Ya, life is just great!

That is why I wake up sick of everything, sick of this existence, see it as not very fun.  Yes, I am always working on some projects, and I am now, but that's not enough to love my life.  To love being here, and being blissfully happy everyday.  That is what I am looking for.  Lisa figured it out, currently lives in Hawaii, and says we can all live in bliss, now that we have ascended.  

Well, I am waiting, working on it purging ahead, and staying as positive as can be, as I know this is the answer.  That is the key, to keep your energy and vibration as high as you can each and every day!  That is why I am writing a book, 30 days, 30 ways to self love!!

Namaste, blessings to all!  May all beings be free of pain and suffering! 

Moving Comes with Change

So much has changed since moving to Hoboken! Of course, for sure, since each and every change shifts us to a more conscious, aware space.  

Change can be tough, so tough some people never want to even go there!  Never want to leave where they are, either a home, a town, a significant other, etc.  But, know, change can be great!  It can be liberating, freedom, shifting to a higher energy, and it allows the new in.  The new ideas that come to you, the new everything, since all is new!  

You truly can create anything a new!  Anything you dream and believe, you can have.  Always, but change makes it easier.  

By letting go of the old, it frees us to the new!

By letting go of the old, it makes room now for the new to appear!

By letting go of the old, it frees our pain!

By letting go of the old, it allows us to live in the moment, where all things are created!

I have moved so many times in the past year.  Each time I have moved, I have grown tremendously, even if it was a rough time.  Even just being here a few months, I have grown so much.  Being more aware, more awake, more conscious, having a higher energy, and only allowing in the same.  

I am glad I moved here, I wanted to live closer to my children, and not have to drive over an hour each way just to see them, for years to come.  I have been driving my entire life, since 17 years old, up and down the Turnpike and Parkway, because my ex husband's family was from Bergen County, and I was from Middlesex, and we were close to both families.  

Then I was just down the shore, in Long Branch for two years, not wanting to keep driving anymore.  Although I barely see my daughter, due to her work, I see my son more often, but not even once a week.  I would love to see them all more, but I finally have accepted, they are busy, have a life, and don't have much free time.  My son only has one day off, the other daughter who lives here never has a day off.  They run a dog and train business, called Pack Leader Dogs, and are always busy with building their business, and they are very happy accomplishing this.  

So, it's on me again!  Me, you, just us.  Trying to do it alone, without the help of another to motivate or inspire you each day.  Not a "good morning, I love you" day at all, ever.  Nor a nightime hug, I love you, I appreciate you, thanks for being here for me!  Any good night hug, good night love, or good morning would be wonderful!  And then I think of my ex, and how we did love one another, and miss that.  Miss that type of love, and I hope he is well.  But, how well can you be when you don't have a relationship with your three children, and it's on you?  How can you not want one?  The connection you feel with your children is like oxygen to me, and when I see them my cup fills up with love! 

Any way, glad I moved here, more growth on my part already, but still tired of this life.  So, now what I am learning about Disclosure, is really making me happy, giving me more of a sense to want to be here, to help and see it all.  

I don't understand how Lisa does it.  She is my mentor, lives in Hawaii, never brings up the media Cabal stuff, but lives Heaven on Earth for sure!  You see it all around her.  I hope some day my life can be so happy and so free, I haven't been truly happy since I don't even know.  Struggling with pain my entire life, and money things, totally sucks, and I am so tired and done with it.   So, this is freedom, freedom in the Ascension, and the disclosure, and being Galactic, Quantum.  

Love and Blessings! 

Moving Fast in Time

Everything seems so crazy!  Moving so fast, time is, although they say it doesn't exist as we think it does.

We are all here, all one, no beginning, no end, and we can move ahead or backwards if we choose.  

We are Galactic Beings, from other planets, and many other planets have life.  We were lied to, brainwashed, and now the truth will appear.   It's called disclosure, something I have been hearing about for years, and I am so glad it has come!  The time is now, so very soon, and now I hear this from two main sources, who were both on Ancient Aliens, David Wilcock, and Coorey Goode.  Crazy stuff, crazy things from Coorey, firsthand, he was handpicked at the age of six to work with the ET's, due to his intense intuition.  Now, they are coming out, and it all relates to the Cabal, for David and Coorey to want to finally stop their abuse, killings, corruption, and control.  

WOW!! That is all I can say.  Shit is going to hit the fan, people are really going to be sad, upset, angry, due to how much we have been lied to.  

One thing I need to remember is, not everyone will accept this to be their truth.  Not everyone will ascend in this lifetime, so to be okay with that, and not let it affect me.  Thank the Lord all of my children are pretty evolved, at a young age, sometimes they just get stuck in that drama of life.  No more though, now they vent fast, and let it go, as do I.  

Evidently, my new info tells me, when the Event occurs, there will be a huge burst from the sun, and then it will be dark for three days.  Why the darkness comes, I am not sure.  This is new for me, but I know I am one of the persons that will help comfort others, give them love and support during this time!

I am excited, as I have been feeling for years I am not meant to be here, I don't like it here, it's not home to me, and that's because IT IS NOT!  I am a star seed, from another planet, here to help assist the earth with the transition into 5D and above, along with the ascension.  And now I have found legitimate people who I can trust with their information.  Not someone I look up to and idolize, to give my power away too, no I did that too much in the past.  But someone that knows so much about who we truly are, all about the different ET's, knows about the ascension, and their main message is to come back to LOVE!  The same message from everywhere, just love.  Love yourself, forgive yourself and others, how can I serve?  Be kind, be compassionate, be the gift of love.  

Blessings and Love!

Starting Over Again!

Hello all, yes, I am diving into this blog again.  I have so much going on, being torn in so many different avenues of helping and serving in aiding the awakening of others.  But, my new friend, who educates me on the New Earth, and helps me to realize my life path, has a course that expects you to write!  How funny is that? 

Her course is FREE, and it's just to help me re align, re educate, and re member, who we truly are, which is the Universe! 

She has a list of 33 words, and asks you to focus on one word each day.  The first word is re mind. 
She feels we all agreed to be here on earth at this time, and we are all remembering, as we all know everything deep inside already! 

The first word is re mind.
What changes can you make in your world?
Falling in love with my soul mate, creating so much more in the outside world, to help heal and educate others.  Getting my children's books illustrated and published. 

What do you want to stay the same? 
Being a Mom of three children.

Remind myself of the loving creation I am, and we all are.
Remind myself we are all connected, all one, all the same source energy.
Remind myself we are all here to remember, to work together in Unity Consciousness. 

The New Earth, The Ascension we are in!!

   

Wow, how much I have grown since my keeping up with this blog!

I have been involved with so many other writing projects, I gave his up awhile ago!  Most of this time was when I gave my power away to someone, and boy, have I grown so much since then, so the story begins, again, here, right now, today!

And will you be in for a ride! 

There is an Ascension happening here on earth, meaning our bodies are ascending into the higher realms, of light, love and peace.  5D, you may have heard people say, but way higher than that. 

When I started to focus on the Reiki, and Healing Energy I learned about years ago, so much has shifted for me.  And of course, it is the loving energy around raising us all to a higher consciousness of knowing.  Of remembering why we are here, why we came, what we are all here for! 

There is plasma energy in the sky, plasma light, our atmospheres are merging together right now.  It is time to be present in our light body, pay attention to the frequencies in your body, because in order to experience the higher vibrations, you must walk into it with love. 

Are you surrounding yourself with the highest vibrations possible?  Look at your life and see.  If you are not, why not then?

Remember no more blame, no more victims, this is unity consciousness, oneness, Christ consciousness, internal love for one self, knowing we are all the creator and more. 

If your shadows are coming up, your ego mind needs to let it go, if you can not seek help.  Because once you do, I will tell you life shifts instantly, and amazingly!  Just like mine has even the past week!

The more you focus on love, on what you want, on your dreams, the more it will appear in front of your eyes, remember we create with thoughts first, then we can make them appear if we believe. 

I have a few face book pages now, You are the Light, Rays of Reiki Healing, and websites, Raysofreikihealing.com, and youaretrulythelight.com, and am on instagram as youarethelight208.  I love motivating others, sharing inspiration, and I actually always have, I just had many other priorities to focus on.  But now, my children are grown, I live alone, and my passion is writing, so that is where I am starting again!!

I also have written a few children's books, and am currently working on getting my first one published, Bright Light Meditation, which combines mediation with Reiki/Energy Healing!  I am so excited about my writings coming into reality, because I have been dreaming about becoming a New York Times best selling author for many years!

The cool thing is I really feel it this time, I see it happening each day, I envision it in my mind!  And, because we are all awakening and coming into our life purpose, the doors are just opening up for me each day now!

I am grateful, I am thankful, I am blessed!!

I also decided to submit an old love poem I have, I have been writing poems since College, and have stuffed them away.  But, the other day I found two poems I framed, I suppose because they were my favorite, they are about love.  I found a contest online to submit my poem to, and I was accepted into the semi finals!  Wow, how excited I was to read a letter from them, not even believing at first.  The letter also stated grand prize was $2,000, which I totally need now, and all of the semi finals are published in a book with this same publishing company. 

Wow, what a dream come true to me, my first written piece of material being published in a book, all because I kept asking the Universe what to do.  How to make money doing what I love.  What to do now that I am home almost every day not having the permanent job I need right now.  How can I make money writing when I love it and have the time to do it, and it's my passion anyway??

And, due to this ascension, and why I am here, it is time, and I haven't felt this good in years! 

I love to share, I love to motivate, I love to stay in, I love to write!

Thank you God and the Universe for making this happen to me now. 

I hope you are finding your own way, asking the questions you need for internal growth.  I promise you it is so very worth it! 
Namaste, Amen, Love and Light!

Working on Staying Positive

How do we stay positive when life seems like a downward spiral? 
 What helps me is listening to the Spiritual Mentors and channeled messages from Angels and others.  Their messages are always the same, we are LOVE, and they are always there for you!  This has been an illusion, duality of things here on earth, not being able to understand happy without feeling sad, etc.  We are here to learn lessons to grow and advance spiritually, learning ways to love ourselves.  Just love, true, pure love.  I hope we all have people that genuinely love us, because we need this connection with others that helps lift us up.  
How to love ourselves more today?  What one thing can we to today for us, to make ourselves happy and feel good?  Of course that will be different for each of us, but just being aware of this and asking ourselves daily is a great start.  To stop and think about ourselves, just for a moment, and what would make us feel good doing today, is a great way to start the day.  Now it's time to follow through, maybe accomplishing something I have been putting off doing?  Maybe making myself a nice pot of soup to keep me warm and healthy during this cold season.  (Which I just did!  Butternut squash with quinoa and kale, awesome!)  One thing that always comes to me is going to nature, the woods, lake, ocean, any of it.  This always makes me feel so good, so comforted, so supported, and helps raise my vibration and energy, which in turn always raises the vibration for all!   Yes, that is our goal here, to raise the vibration within ourselves, and for all of humanity, and the result is Peace on Earth. 
The point is to go within, and think of what feels good for you today, to put yourself first.  The love and respect you will feel by doing this, will raise your vibration, and in return, bring wonderful things to you, and help raise the energy and vibration of all!