So crazy life is, has been, and is becoming.
So much going on, and this energy all around is so fast and intense that I have to consciously focus on grounding myself each day, needing to sit next to a huge tree!
I have moved to my brother's home temporarily, and now after being here almost two weeks I finally feel settled enough to start working on my book again. When I signed a contract with Balboa Press at the end of July, I was able to transfer 90 pages onto word perfect, and started editing my book! Being in the trees where I was staying temporarily truly helped my energy to focus on achieving and prospering.
But, moving totally throws you off balance, like your spinning around forever and can not stop, until you settle in, how ever much time that takes. On my sad days I feel how unfair it is for me to be living this way and going through it, but on my good days I know the Universe is just trying to push me ahead, shake me up, to finally follow my life purpose, which is writing. So, I finally have gotten it, and finally have pushed ahead to do something about it. I figured after loosing the job I had lined up, and loosing the place I was going to live, maybe the Universe was telling me something. I started to think out of the box, and see what other options I had. I asked the Universe for a sign as to what to do next, and I received a call from Balboa Press at that same moment, and answered that call with a huge grin on my face, understanding the message immediately. So, this week I am going to concentrate on editing my book again, as I haven't looked at it in two weeks. When I start I get very involved, barely stopping to eat, or stretch, but then my body ends up aching so much. This time I hope to take the time to stop, rest, do some yoga, eat, and recharge.
Today is Saturday, and I had the opportunity to hang out with my two great nephews, and my niece and brother, at their pool today. I had an awesome time, being with my family always warms my heart. I definitely have a strong need to stay connected to them, and know that my core imprint is disconnection. So, that would mean my life purpose would be to connect, to connect to others, and family is great. My nephews are adorable, one being born on my Father's birthday and feel he is an essence of him. I have six brothers, and this is one of my oldest brothers who I remember always being there for my mom and for me. He use to take me with him when he went to cut a woman's lawn in the summer, and I remember loving all the flowers around the woman's home.
After getting home I felt really exhausted, and this time realizing I have felt this way all summer, very drained and exhausted from the heat. The day I went to the beach with my nieces I felt drained and exhausted at her home afterwards. Maybe it is my low thyroid that I do not take medication for, but do help with supplements. I am going to look into getting some health care this week, and then get to the Doctor to have my blood drawn.
I have noticed me changing a great deal, my thoughts, my perceptions, how much more in tune I am with people's energies, etc. This is a cool thing for me, finally feeling that all the work I have been doing on myself the past year, is paying off. So much pain and sadness, this was the worse winter of my life! And, I am not kidding, I was so depressed I don't even know how I kept pushing myself ahead each day. A time I don't ever want to remember, such sadness and pain I have gone through since last November when my children moved out. I suppose lots of growth and expansion as well, but I haven't seen enough of the fruits from that yet. I will be happy when I have my own place to call home, with loved ones in it, and being financially abundant! And of course helping others in a big way, in whatever way I am here to serve.
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