My Breakdown

Namaste ~

So, after finding an awesome place to live finally, the upstairs apartment in a large home, with an Italian grandmother underneath!  After leaving the Realtor, I saw a home for rent by owner, and called and stopped in to see it.  The Italian woman who showed it to me, who lives there, was so nice, so sweet, and wanted to connect.  She showed me the place which was twice as large as all the other homes I saw, and the same price!  I was excited, the kitchen was huge with large windows in the west when the sun sets.  The living room and bedroom were large along with facing the east with large windows so the sun can greet you in the morning and say hello.  
The woman enjoyed my company, explaining to me how she lost her husband of eight years, and tears flooded from her eyes.  She had grandchildren that came often to visit and her one daughter lived with her.  We really connected and bonded, and living there would be like having family underneath me, knowing that on Sunday dinners, she would most likely invite me down to eat!  She didn't enjoy being alone, and enjoyed my company, it was really beautiful!  
I phoned her daughter who was in charge, and she explained that her Mother loved me and wanted me there, all I had to do was come up with the security deposit.  Okay, that's no problem I said to her, and I told her I would have it by the end of the week.  I was so excited, knowing how awesome this place was, how large it was for the price, and to have a beautiful Italian family living there.  
The next thing to do was to check in with my attorney, to see where the money is that my ex owes me for back child support I had to pay him when my daughters were living with me.  I went to Court TWO  years ago for this, and still haven't seen it, and I even have a so called "good" attorney.  I reached out to him again, to see what was going on, because he never reaches out to me, I am the one always having to move the ball on this, which is pretty disappointing.  My attorney finally sends me a letter from my ex's attorney, Ashley Cooper, stating they do not want to pay me a thing.  Lying over some credits I owe him, and wanting me to prepay my child support obligation for my son, because he lives with his Dad full time now.  Along with that came a letter from my son, stating how he lives with his Dad full time now.  Last year when my ex brought up me paying child support for my son, my son got upset, explaining to me that his Father did not want it!  I explained of course he did, or he wouldn't have had you sign this letter and give it to his attorney.  So, at that time my son decided to live with both of us part time, so neither of us would have to pay child support.  I have had to pay child support for my children for ten years, even though I did not work a day in my life being married!  Even when my children moved in with me full time, I had to pay support.  Even when I told the Judge I could not work due to a car accident I had, and had proof from Doctors treating me, he did not care, and still made me pay. 
This time I totally broke down!  I broke down because he has done this to me for ten years, always gets away with stuff he shouldn't, and it freaks me out to my core.  I cried hysterical for awhile, having to hold my stomach in comfort.  Along with this I cried because my son signed this letter, when last year he did not feel I should have to pay his father child support, when he is a Chiropractor and lives in a mansion.  So, now he changed his tune, but couldn't even discuss it with me to prepare me.  He went behind my back, not sharing this with me, and the day after he signed the letter he came away with me to Boston, and I even brought his friend with him, free of charge.  We are so close, he has no relationship what so ever with his father, and that's what broke my heart.  He has told me they don't even talk, barely saying hello to each other.  I have no idea what that is all about, but we have been close his entire life!  
After crying hysterical awhile, I called my friend, and broke down to her.  She always comforts me with her words, she has been divorced and in the same situation with me, with abusive men.  She explained once this is all over, I will feel so good, set free from him, even though now I am suffering.  And to not take what my son is doing personally, because my ex manipulates them and has control issues. Just by her listening, comforted me, knowing someone understands and cares! 
This also changes everything.  If he will not pay me a thing, I will have to move in with one of my brothers for awhile, until I can figure it all out.  Tomorrow I will call my attorney and speak to him about any other options we have, like taking him back to Court and let the Judge decide what he owes me.  He should have stopped the child support obligation as soon as my children moved in with me, and he did not.  This has been going on for two years, and I can not understand why no attorney can help me.  This is my third attorney since Court, have given them $10,000 in total, and each one is powerless over Gail Weinberg's office.  His attorney always seems to lead the way, and be in charge, which must stop.  I do not understand the power they have.  I am drained and exhausted, and am going to bed.
Namaste <3