My First Kundalini Yoga Class

Namaste ~
I attended my first kundalini yoga class today at a Yoga Studio I just went to for a Holistic Fair.  I was also there a few months ago for a Kirtan, and I loved the women I met there, and loved the woman who ran the Studio.  So, I was excited to see how different Kundalinin Yoga was, compared to Hatha, etc.  The class was an hour and a half long.  Kundalini Yoga is all about the breath, breathing exercises, and a sun salutation. The teacher, who I met before and loved, shocked me a few times in class.  

She first explained how it is "your" practice, and do what "your" body tells you, which I know.  I was a gymnast in High School and College, and lifted weights my entire life, a personal trainer, and have been doing yoga for ten years.  I also get spasms in my back and neck and know when to stop.  A few times during the class when I did what my body wanted to, and not what she was telling me to do, she corrected me.  While I was ignoring her, in deep meditation with my eyes closed, she said it again and again.  I finally stopped what I was doing and looked at her, and she reprimanded me again, but could not even look into my eyes!  Wow, here you go, a spiritual yoga teacher, telling me I am doing it "wrong", not to do what I was doing to comfort my body, but I was "ruining the flow"!  OMG! Your kidding me, right? I asked myself.  

Then, after class as I was trying to explain myself, she ignored me, talking to me as if I knew nothing about yoga at all.  She could care less what I had to say about anything, and I was pretty surprised, and walked away as she was talking to the others.

Now, I ask you what did I do besides not follow her plan?  Did that intimidate her?  Did my energy intimidate her?  She acted as if I did something wrong to hurt her, and she was defending herself.  All while I said nothing, but just listened to my own body on what it needs, and I am tired of pushing myself for others.  This was self loving for me to do, especially as an athlete that still wants to "push" themselves.  It is powerful and new for me to do this, and she should be proud, and should have listened, maybe learning a new lesson.  

This is the problem I find when your vibration and energy is different than others that are in a "spiritual community".  Some feel threatened, or are jealous, or something that I do not even know what it is, but it is one part I do not like.  Other new spiritual beings I have met, have done the same thing.  Some have even private messaged me on face book to chew my ear out and give me a hard time, when I did nothing to them!  It's a crazy part of this, and I can't wait to hear Teal Swan's opinion on this.  

Namaste all day ~