I woke up today with the snow falling in my new place, yay! I have such joy in my heart, It feels amazing to be here, in my own loving space. It is snowing outside, and the kids do not have school, so I thought I would be off. I am so very happy today, so content in my heart, a feeling I have not had for awhile. I am going to enjoy the day, and make a pot of soup. I am glad I ran to the store quickly yesterday to get a few things for the fridge, since I have not gone food shopping yet.
My girlfriend just called, and I spoke to her for awhile, she has been with me all along, and is as thrilled as I am for me to be in. She is waiting to move as well, waiting for a new home to be finished on the lagoon, her brothers home which was damaged in the Sandy Storm. Instead of being thrilled to have a brand new home to go to, on the water to see the sunset every night, along with free rent, she is stressed about it. I can not judge her though, her and her family pretty much live in the state of worry, and focus on what can go wrong, and so it is. She is very reserved about that with me, because she knows how I feel, that your life is filled with what you focus on, but she is still stressed. It is funny how we compare all the time, which really isn't very fair, as each one of us has different feelings, emotions, and opinions about things.
As I sat down to start writing, my boss text me and wanted me to come in! The children had no school, and both parents work from home. It is pretty bad out, but I always feel badly not helping others out if I can. So, I looked outside, the snow had stopped, and the roads were plowed. I forgot to discuss snow days with my new boss, as my other job I did not go into work when the schools were closed for the snow, and was paid for it. I do not think anyone should be driving on the roads when there is snow and they are bad, and do not want to go anywhere in this weather. So, I do not know why I even agreed to go in. I should have said it is too nasty out for me to drive, and I will make sure I do that next time. I was really bummed I agreed to go in, because I do not like to drive in the snow and always stay in the first day when the kids do not have school. I let myself down, abandoning myself, by going against my own belief, just to please them. I will make sure I will not do this again, when the Schools are closed for snow, I will stay home.
Not only did I go in early to work, I stayed until 7:30. My goal was to leave by 5:00, before it gets dark. The kids attend a math school once a week, and this is the day, and I took them. The daughter still was going to Taekwando, and I usually take her and drop her off, and her Dad picks her up. But, her Dad asked me to pick her up today. The reason I do not mind is because I need the money, but it was so very cold, freezing, snowy streets, and I was cold and wanted to get home.
I got home at 8:30, and as soon as I walked in the door, a friend of mine through Teal called! Wow, it was such a pleasure to speak with him, and I was so touched he called. We talked for an hour and a half! It felt like five minutes. I was exhausted, can't do anything else here in cleaning up, so off to bed I am going.
Good Nite!
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