This will be my third move in three months, which has been pretty draining. I can't wait to just sit home, and rest for a few days. I can't wait to be able to sit on my own couch, and sleep in my own bed, as I haven't in awhile. It is amazing how our priorities change due to the different situations in our lives. I would never believe I would end up living with one of my brothers temporarily, and not feeling wanted there, and not having enough funds to get my own place. It wasn't suppose to work out this way as I had a small sum of money to pay for a place. Then that place fell through, and I ended up staying with my brother, and the money went to other things. Just great for me, just great. I am sure there is a bigger picture to all of this, as to why I had to end up with living without my things for three months, moving from North Jersey, to Central Jersey, back to North Jersey within three months, and living in four different places within that amount of time as well. Seems to me that I pretty much ran through the lessons I needed to learn, instead of stalling and taking years to occur. We will see, only time will tell!
I called a Realtor regarding an apartment I had seen while I was visiting my son at work. We were going to hang out after work because I was so bummed and needed something to do. He was running errands and we decided to go together, but he had to shower after work. When I spoke to the Realtor she explained that it was a very "small" place, but was showing the place now, if I wanted to come by soon. She almost talked me out of it explaining it was "small", but since I had to wait an hour for my son, I thought I had nothing to loose to go and look at it. The Realtor was very serious, explained the home very well, and the funny thing is, I absolutely loved it! It was really cute, walking upstairs into the Living Room, with the Bedroom around the left corner, and the Bathroom and Kitchen to the right. I loved it right away, and it had great energy due to the flow of the rooms creating a half circle. The windows all had crown molding, and there were two windows in each room, along with a window over the sink that I love to have. And yes, there is a bathtub, my other favorite thing, as I bathe daily, and sometimes twice when I really need it. The only issue is the door to the apartment is very small, and it will be hard to get a couch through the space. If I can not bring my couches because they are too large, I am okay with that, because this is temporary, only for a year, until I manifest my mansion on the beach. I also have a Dining Room Set, my parents Bedroom Set, and other items stored now in my brothers garage, so they can stay there for now.
I told the Realtor I wanted it, I loved it, and she was totally happy. She was very nice and thorough and professional. She had to run my credit (oh no!), and call my old landlord along with my boss regarding my income. Oh boy, I have not gone this route ever before renting, as I have always lucked out with never having my credit run, nor calling my landlord or boss. The reason is my credit is not very good, and I get paid cash, The other small issue, I just started working for this family only a few weeks ago, but said I worked for a year because they want to see stability. So, with that, I phoned my boss and spoke to him, and he was very cool about it, explaining it was no problem and he would support what I said. Whew, thank you Universe again! I will keep telling the Universe what I want, and remember that I do not need to know the "how" of it happening, just know and trust that it will because it is what I want! And we all know already that we are here, now, on this earth, to get what we want, to follow our joy, follow our bliss, follow our dreams and be totally happy! Yes, that is my goal as well, and it will happen.
The Realtor sent me the application, which I filled out and sent back. She did call my landlord and my boss, and she said they both gave me great references, thank you for that. We spoke about my old credit history, and she was cool and understanding, and felt it would be okay to work through. She said the next step was to have a meeting with the landlord, which we were planning for the weekend. Wow, this is great, but now the biggest obstacle of all, where is the money coming from? So, this gives me an entire week to figure out where the money will come from, I am putting total trust in the Universe for this one!
I decided to start with being in a state of "receiving", which is hard for me as I am such a giver and love to give! So, I watched my Spiritual Mentor's video about "Receiving", learning to open your heart to receive, and allow others to give. So, I thought of my two brothers who were going to chip in to buy a mobile home for an investment, and allow me to live there. Neither of them came through for me. The one said he had no money left, just spent it! I know this is not the case, he has his own business and just explained how he was doing so well and treated for Thanksgiving Diner at a Restaurant also. I guess he did not want to help me out, and I was sad for the day, knowing he didn't seem to care to even want to help. The same thing with the other, I spoke to him about it, he didn't automatically offer to lend any money to me, so I told him to think about it and let me know. I didn't hear back from him so I called him the next day or two and he didn't answer, I left a message and he didn't ever call me back. Wow, what a way to blow your sister off, he too is divorced and has struggled financially, we are only a year and a half apart and were close growing up and even after High School going out together partying. Not even a thousand dollars neither one was willing to lend to me. They are very different than I, I would lend them anything they needed, as long as I had it.
So, as I explained this to my other brother who always helps me move and my things are in his garage, he offered to lend me some! I didn't even ask him, he just offered, and I know he is the one that doesn't have an abundance of money, and he still has two young children at home to raise. My other two brothers are single, divorced, with no alimony to pay. I was so touched, I cried and thanked him. Then, I decided to ask my oldest brother who has helped me before when he could. I knew he did not have extra money by the comments he has made in the past, but decided to ask for a few hundred anyway. He reacted immediately by saying, "Sure Carol, I can help you out"! Another joy in my heart. Thank you Universe. Now, I had a small amount saved from working only two weeks, and with the security deposit I will be receiving back for the room, I think I will have enough to do this!
I am happy and worried at the same time, but trying not to focus on the "how" of all of this. I am still short a few hundred dollars, and do not know how much I will make next week, because I work extra hours each week and need it!
But, for now, I have crossed a major bridge, a bridge that will get me to my own home, a new home I can call mine, to lay my head and rest at night!
Namaste
I told the Realtor I wanted it, I loved it, and she was totally happy. She was very nice and thorough and professional. She had to run my credit (oh no!), and call my old landlord along with my boss regarding my income. Oh boy, I have not gone this route ever before renting, as I have always lucked out with never having my credit run, nor calling my landlord or boss. The reason is my credit is not very good, and I get paid cash, The other small issue, I just started working for this family only a few weeks ago, but said I worked for a year because they want to see stability. So, with that, I phoned my boss and spoke to him, and he was very cool about it, explaining it was no problem and he would support what I said. Whew, thank you Universe again! I will keep telling the Universe what I want, and remember that I do not need to know the "how" of it happening, just know and trust that it will because it is what I want! And we all know already that we are here, now, on this earth, to get what we want, to follow our joy, follow our bliss, follow our dreams and be totally happy! Yes, that is my goal as well, and it will happen.
The Realtor sent me the application, which I filled out and sent back. She did call my landlord and my boss, and she said they both gave me great references, thank you for that. We spoke about my old credit history, and she was cool and understanding, and felt it would be okay to work through. She said the next step was to have a meeting with the landlord, which we were planning for the weekend. Wow, this is great, but now the biggest obstacle of all, where is the money coming from? So, this gives me an entire week to figure out where the money will come from, I am putting total trust in the Universe for this one!
I decided to start with being in a state of "receiving", which is hard for me as I am such a giver and love to give! So, I watched my Spiritual Mentor's video about "Receiving", learning to open your heart to receive, and allow others to give. So, I thought of my two brothers who were going to chip in to buy a mobile home for an investment, and allow me to live there. Neither of them came through for me. The one said he had no money left, just spent it! I know this is not the case, he has his own business and just explained how he was doing so well and treated for Thanksgiving Diner at a Restaurant also. I guess he did not want to help me out, and I was sad for the day, knowing he didn't seem to care to even want to help. The same thing with the other, I spoke to him about it, he didn't automatically offer to lend any money to me, so I told him to think about it and let me know. I didn't hear back from him so I called him the next day or two and he didn't answer, I left a message and he didn't ever call me back. Wow, what a way to blow your sister off, he too is divorced and has struggled financially, we are only a year and a half apart and were close growing up and even after High School going out together partying. Not even a thousand dollars neither one was willing to lend to me. They are very different than I, I would lend them anything they needed, as long as I had it.
So, as I explained this to my other brother who always helps me move and my things are in his garage, he offered to lend me some! I didn't even ask him, he just offered, and I know he is the one that doesn't have an abundance of money, and he still has two young children at home to raise. My other two brothers are single, divorced, with no alimony to pay. I was so touched, I cried and thanked him. Then, I decided to ask my oldest brother who has helped me before when he could. I knew he did not have extra money by the comments he has made in the past, but decided to ask for a few hundred anyway. He reacted immediately by saying, "Sure Carol, I can help you out"! Another joy in my heart. Thank you Universe. Now, I had a small amount saved from working only two weeks, and with the security deposit I will be receiving back for the room, I think I will have enough to do this!
I am happy and worried at the same time, but trying not to focus on the "how" of all of this. I am still short a few hundred dollars, and do not know how much I will make next week, because I work extra hours each week and need it!
But, for now, I have crossed a major bridge, a bridge that will get me to my own home, a new home I can call mine, to lay my head and rest at night!
Namaste
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