Waking up for the First Time in My New Home!

 As I got into bed last night with a huge smile on my face, I was so excited like I use to get as a kid and couldn't sleep all night.  As I laid in bed, instantly my body was in so much pain I could not even turn from side to side.  The intense pain and ache was like I have never felt before, it's totally crazy what happens to my body when I work it too hard.  

But, this time I did not care, being so happy to have a new home!  I awoke at 7:00 am, and went straight to unpacking.  I made some breakfast for myself around 11:00, telling myself this was my first breakfast in my new home, and savored that moment.  But, only after a few spoonfuls, did I have to get up and unpack more.  The apartment was a mess, boxes and bins everywhere.  I worked the entire day by myself, unpacking, while my children and everyone else watched the Super Bowl. The day truly blinked away, working non stop the entire day, ignoring my body in pain.  I would have liked to have seen the Super Bowl, as I love football.  My ex husband was a football player in College, and even tried out for the Jets.  But I had no where to go, and assumed my daughters were going somewhere to watch the game like they said.  Neither of them called me all day, and I had to unpack alone. 

 I will tell you it is so much work moving.  I suggest if you ever have a friend, or family, who is moving, to absolutely help them if you can.  It is one of the biggest treasures to have people in your life, who will be there for you when you truly need it.  And not only being there by a phone call, but being there physically when you really need it.  When I know a loved one needs help, I ask if there is any way I can help.  I do this automatically to all of my loved ones.  But, now I see this is not reciprocated, and I think I will need to re evaluate who I give my energy to.  It is obvious who was there for me this time, not my daughters, nor my family members I have know for years.  I have brothers who have helped their own children, and even my sister in laws sister, but couldn't even help his own sister.  I received grief from his wife when I moved ten years ago, telling me never to ask him again, but he has moved many other family members since then, but not me.  No, it was just my son, my one niece, and her boyfriend, and my one brother.  My other brother always helps, but he had plans, and I did not want him to cancel them for me, so he did not.  Pretty sad when you have six brothers, sister in laws, and lots of nieces and nephews, but none of them offered to help.   Pretty sad when you thought you were close to them and they were there for you!  I always offer for any help my family needs, but that will have to stop now, I am sad, disappointed, and feeling pretty unsupported here. 

I am exhausted, I do not know how I even get that adrenaline and push myself, but I do.  I do not know how I moved all day yesterday, carrying boxes, bins, moving furniture, running up and down the stairs in this move!  But, I did, and it is done, I am in, just have to finish organizing everything.  With all the work I did today, there is still so much left to do, I did not even touch my bedroom.  The place is somewhat organized, more than it was, but it looks like there is still so much to do.  The floors are also filthy that I still have to wash, because of the snow, we tracked in a mess!  I don't mind of course, there just still seems like so much left to do.  

When I went to clean the bathroom, I realized how filthy it was, with hair everywhere, so they did not even have it cleaned before I moved in.  This is not acceptable, after what I had to do to get the apartment, pay a realtor fee, and meet with the landlords.    I do not understand how this happens, it is fairly easy to get someone to clean the apartment if they did not want to, but it needs to be done!  

It is only 9:00, but I am exhausted, so I am going to bed!  Good Night, sleep tight~sweet dreams, don't let the bed bugs bite!! Boy, is this going to be fun!  It feels better to be here than I even thought it would!  To be able to walk to the bathroom in my undies, to be able to do whatever I want with no one around, to be able to sit on my couch and make tea in my kitchen, are simple pleasures that bring such joy to my heart already!  Wow, I can't wait to see what the future will bring!