A Light at the end of the Tunnel!

Yesterday was a cold, rainy day, I even had to wear my winter coat with the hood.  Today, the sun is shining, and I can't wait to get outside, but the sad thing is I have no where to go.  I no longer have my own, private back yard surrounded by trees, oak trees, pine trees, and Christmas trees!  I no longer have my front porch that I would go out and sit on in the morning with my tea                                          .

                                         

or coffee.  After my Reiki Healing session, it made me aware of many things, and one of them is working on staying in the present moment, and stop dwelling on the past.  My new mantra is surrender, release and let go.  These lessons have always been there for me, being in such resistance at times.  If my lessons are in front of my face by where I am right now in my life, then it is time to face them so I can move on and not stay stuck in the past.  The past was my husband, my family that I kept yearning for.    

What is my future?  I don't even know as it is a total open book.  That maybe exciting to some, but its alone without my family.  Alone, walking this path alone.  We are not alone, never alone because we are always connected, we are one.  But, tell me that when I wake up in the morning without my daughters or son to say "hello" to!  And, no one there at night to call and ask what they want me to pick up and cook for dinner.  Eating alone morning and night, God, it does get sad.  

                                         

But, I am working on seeing the light again, as I have no choice any longer due to my body pain and my chakras closing, which are now open.  How do we keep them open was my question.  Staying away from negativity, especially negative thoughts I tell myself.  This was my first awakening at the session, the thoughts in my head when I am in lots of pain, and wow, they weren't very good at all.  I don't even want to repeat them, but I probably have mentioned them before, but never will again.  I made a pack with myself that I will no longer say such things about my life, my self, etc., and I will send my neck and body light, the healing light I tell everyone else about, I am sending to my neck each morning.  My neck is filled with God's love and light each moment and I am blessed and grateful for this day!  Show me loved ones coming into my life to connect with, and who need my services so I can create financial abundance through what I love to do.  And send me new loved ones who can help support me here on earth now!
                     

My visions are so many, I sat down and drew a picture of the Angel I want to appear in my book!  She is so cute and I love her and can not wait to get her into action and share her with the world!  Thank you God, thank you Universe for sending me these gifts that I love and enjoy doing so much!                           

To all of you out there who have been struggling as I, there will be light at the end of the tunnel.  You must believe first, just believe!  Believe in love, believe in yourself, believe in miracles!  I have fallen off the path so many times, so it is  good to remember how to get back on the path where I am flowing down the river and not against it.  This is so hard to do when you feel so stuck in pain, sadness, despair, or any other painful emotion.  

The energy is there, we can manifest what we focus on easily now.  So, I am going with that and can't wait to share what manifests first in my life!

Namaste, Amen!