Moving Down the Shore

Okay, so I finally made a major decision about where to live.  I have been contemplating moving up North to be with my children, to get a place large enough for us.   But, I just realized I don't have enough income to do that.  I can only financially now afford a one bedroom for myself.  
I lived up there last winter in a one bedroom with myself and was so terribly depressed.  To be up North for my children is great, but only if I see them once or twice a week, not once or twice a month.  They don't want to see me all the time anymore since they all moved out, they are figuring out themselves, and don't want to hang out as a family as much anymore.  It's sad for me to accept I can't afford a place for my children and myself.  But, if I can not, there is no sense in me being up North.  
I have been contemplating moving down the shore last year when my kids moved out, but changed my mind, missing my kids so much, running back up there.  Which I did, in that apartment, and hated it, and my children barely came to visit.  The beach always calls me all summer long, especially the weekends when everyone is off.  Imagine to be able to live down the shore and not ever having to drive there again?  Wow, how awesome and wonderful is that, especially that I have been complaining about driving so much now.  How can I not be happy in May when the weather is warm, and I can walk to the beach?? Hello!  And to be able to do that all year long, a dream come true.  I suppose I never thought I would have the opportunity to live down the shore because my children and family is up North, and Central Jersey.  I think now that is why my job and house rental fell through last summer, because I wasn't meant to live up there now.  Since the summer, I have been at my brothers home, which is definitely a struggle for sure, but always trying to stay positive.  I moved in with him, because I had no where to go, and have been deciding what to do and where to go.  
So, I just started looking at places down the shore, and I can get a one bedroom pretty inexpensive and only a few blocks from the beach!  How awesome is that?  I was looking at Ocean Grove, Bradley Beach, Avon and Long Branch.  Then I realized my niece and her family go to Long Branch beach because she lives there now, and I have another friend there.  Why go to another beach to lay alone on the beach again, when I always visit this niece at the beach with her boys anyway.  So, I think I will be happier in Long Branch, most times when I hit the beach I hang out with them anyway, this way I will already be there!!
Looking forward to this new transition in my life, thank you God and the Universe for sure!