Finding my Purpose Here

I am wondering today how I can help with Teal Swan's mission here on earth.  Being alone now, without my family and children I need to fill that void.  With something big, something huge, and I know it is through her teachings!  So, I am sending it out to the Universe to send me what I need to get to see her again, now, in this reality, now!  Manifest away, I wish it was that simple, and yes, I know that shows I am still struggling with this.  I have been trying to manifest so many things, and it seems to be taking much too long.  So now I will try to ask for it now, now, I am ready to receive the gifts ahead of me, I am ready to receive what I desire, or "inown".  Thank you God, Universe for sending it to me.  Thank you to the Angels and Guides that walk with me each day.  I am grateful. 

I spoke to my sister in law yesterday upset about my pain, trying to handle it.  She was so sweet and comforting as usual, and we talked about what I can do to help myself get relief.  She is a Reiki Practioner, and has a Reiki Master she knows and loves.  She offered to call her and make an appointment for me right away, and she is seeing me tonight.  I am so very grateful for this, she is like an Angel here watching over me now, when I feel I do not know where else to turn.  Everything takes money, and if your flow is not abundant, you do not have the freedom to do all you want.  In this case getting the help I need to heal, and getting to see people who could help me.  
                                                         
I have to remind myself daily that I am enough, and I am worthy.  It surely is a process, I can say it but believing it 100% is hard.  Because if I was enough, I would have accomplished what I wanted already, and not dwell on the past so much.  I am learning, it is a process, I have to realize.  I want things now, changes to happen now.  I am done with waiting, for years and years for what?  
Be happy, follow your joy, fill your world with love, and loved ones!
Love and Light! <3