Stayed in all day Exhausted

Namaste
I stayed in all day and rested today, not even having the energy to go through some more bins and unpack.  My body aches so much, especially my upper back, in between my shoulder blades, it feels almost as if it was burned by fire and the pain will not go away and is excruciating.  I decided to take a bath, and just looking at the water in the tub made me cry!  When I am sad, tears always are released when I bathe or shower, it's totally crazy.  And today was no different, releasing so many tears, pain and sadness in that water!  After the bath I decided to lay down, which was so needed.  I got up after about an hour and my pain did calm down a bit.  The spasms are so bad they feel like I was burnt by a fire, and like knives are being dug into my skin!  
When I awoke, I decided to go to the food store for some food, so I can make dinner for my brother and his son, which he has every weekend.  It was actually really nice, my brother never cooks, he just doesn't like to and feels he is not very good at it.  He just told me he has to change his diet totally, after going to a Doctor for his stomach issues, she said no more Gluten!  He seemed overwhelmed, not knowing what to eat now, and I assured him he was in good hands, because that is the way I eat, sugar and gluten free!  
We had a nice dinner together, I made sweet potatoes and asparagus, and they ate steak with it, and I surely did not!  My brother appreciated it and offered to give me money for the food store, which I rejected feeling I should contribute somehow at least.  
After dinner,  I cleaned up, called my daughter, and went to my room around 8:00 to rest.  Which I surely did, I lit all the candles I have, and got under the covers and it felt great.  I laid in bed a few hours, my body suffering in pain.  I spoke to my body and pain, and asked what can I do to make it feel better, and what does it want to tell me?  I envisioned some attachments in my neck and upper back, and worked on pulling those cords out, filling them with light, and burning those cords!  We can have attachments to people, they can even attach to us, which would wear us down and could cause pain.  I laid in bed a few hours not totally asleep, but more as if I was meditating, coming in and out of consciousness, until 12:00.  Then, I got up and blew the candles out and went to bed for the night.  
It was a really difficult day, one of the hardest yet.  Going to a new food store was sad, it brought tears to my eyes knowing I am not home anymore, knowing I have no home and feel so lost.  The food store was way too huge, not knowing where everything was took way too long to get through.  
My tears today were ones of feeling lost, not knowing where I even want to be.  Not even knowing what job I will create to become financially abundant.  Being here in my brothers home makes me realize so much what I want.  A home of my own, one I love and am proud of and can pour my spirit into.  I don't think I want to live alone though, I would love a room mate, someone to live with me that I love to be around.  
I am not in the state today to realize I can create my future and manifest what I want.  I am in a serious state of loneliness, sadness, feeling I have nothing and no one.  It makes you feel so lost leaving the home you have been in for four years, and living with someone else.  I have moved an hour away from where my children are now and where I raised them, I have come back to the area I grew up in.  I have more of a support system here, family I love and can go visit and bond with.  Up North near my children, I have really no friends and family.  I lost touch with my children's friends parents a long time ago, and my friends were my sister in laws. and since I have been divorced we no longer are in touch.  At least here I have people to visit at night if I don't want to be alone, at least five different people to see, and that is a lot for me!  I was going to visit someone tonight, but got done with dinner too late, and was so content with just getting in bed and nourishing my body.
So, peace out for now, hoping this gets better!
Love and Light