It is Saturday, and it is so nice to wake up and hear someone's voice. I am glad my brother's son is here, even though we haven't been close, it is nice to be around him and my brother. I stayed in my room all morning, just made some tea, showered, and getting dressed. I woke up again today so tired, so exhausted, my body and mind. I feel so drained, so tired, but my pain has calmed down somewhat from yesterday. I am always in so much pain, and I truly want to get to the answer to it, why I have had to suffer in pain pretty much my entire life.
I am not as sad and depressed as I was yesterday, I can not figure it all out in a day. I am going to head up North to spend the day with my daughters, because they are staying in all day so the dogs can get use to their new place, so I can visit them, and hang out with them. I still have some things of mine in my old house, in the garage, and have to go back there one more time today. I actually dread it, having no desire to go back there and be sad, sad my life there is gone and over, stepping into this new life I do not want, and feel so lost in.
What a way to test yourself, test your strength and courage, to just change your life drastically without your own home to live in. I don't think I would have enjoyed living alone right away anyway, I see that now. I am glad the house I was going to rent fell through, although I do not want to be here, I would rather be here with a family member I love, even if we aren't close, than to be living alone and waking up alone every day. My brother made it perfectly clear he only wants me here for a few weeks, so I will have to make other plans soon. I currently do not have any job nor income coming in. Although I am divorced, my alimony ended after ten years, even though I qualified for lifetime alimony. Oh well, I am over that, knowing all things happen for a reason.
I know what I want to do here while I have time left on this earth, but I just don't know how to accomplish it all, and put it out there to become financially abundant.
I love to write and have written a few children's books that need to be illustrated and published. I am currently writing an adult book as well, my spiritual life journey to self love, and would love to find a publisher for that as well. I also am certified for Reiki and want to do energy work for others, and read Angel Cards for them, along with turning them onto the crystals and essential oils I love. All of this is so healing, and I want to help heal and empower others to have the life they want to have. I also want to teach children's yoga again, I am certified, I just need to find a place to teach at. I also just took a new class by Donna Eden, who created some exercises for energy healing your own body, and would love to teach this anywhere, especially to the Senior Citizens. So, when it comes to loves I totally have, it is just asking the Universe to send me clients so I can use my gifts to help teach others to heal themselves.
I always use to ask how I am suppose to get all of this out there and find clients, but now I know to ask the Universe to send them to me, so I will. I am asking the Universe to send me clients who need this type of healing, and places where I can teach children's yoga, energy work, and all of the other modalities I know. I am asking the Universe to show me how to get my books finished, and published so I can start getting them out there to the children, to help empower them teaching them how bright they are and how they can do whatever they want here on earth!
But for now, I am going to take a ride up North, get the rest of my things, and visit my children on this beautiful Saturday! The sun is out, it is not a bad day, not at all as dark as yesterday.
Namaste, all have a blessed day!
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