Waking up Worried Today, Cancel that thought!

I know, I am not suppose to worry, but sometimes it is so hard.  My nanny position ends in three weeks, and I do not have another one lined up yet!  I also am moving in two weeks, and have too much stuff to have to store away still, and not sure where I should take it.  I also have to pack everything away, again.  Thank the Lord my friend is coming to help this time, but this time I asked.  I realize people do offer, but my immediate response is, "No, that's okay, I will be fine",  as I do not want to impose on another.  But I offer to help others, and this time I realized I couldn't do it alone, and needed to ask, and I did.  I am grateful for that!  It is crazy to think some things I just took out of my brothers garage is going back, it is going to be a long, emotional day, a day I am not looking forward to.  Then, after a long day of moving, I may have to drive my brother back south, because we may have to take some items back to his place in the truck.
                                      
I have too much on my mind, always too much to worry about.  The same money thing, so I am going to start listening to Teal Swan's money video, and money meditation every single day!  It's all about that energy, to stay in a high energetic state, knowing the Universe and God will provide for me, for the best of me.  Knowing work will come, the work I am suppose to do.

The nanny jobs seems so depressing since I last looked.  Everyone now wants you to clean their home, along with watching their children, with very little pay now.  They barely want to pay $15 and hour, and I am currently making $20, only caring for the children.  Maybe the Universe is pushing me towards something else, like a Healing Center for All, especially the kids.  Or a Yoga Studio.  The Yoga Studio I have been attending is just one yoga room, a front area of course, and a back area for props and a bathroom.  And the owner is never there, they Yoga Instructor opens and closes the place.  That mean the owner, unless she teaches there, basically does nothing, and is making all the money while she hires teachers to teach.  What do teachers make around here?  Probably around $40 to $50 an hour.  It would be a lot of work putting the program together, and then I question getting my books out first.  See how confused I get about this?  All the time, the Healing Center is always on the back of my brain it seems, maybe I should look for an investor, someone to help me with it.
And then my books, same thing, trying to get the money to get them illustrated!! Thank you Universe in advance for this.

 I have focused on applying for nanny positions all last week when my family was gone, spoke to some women, and went on some interviews.  Like I said, it's not such a happy sight, things have changed in the last few months.  I don't know what to do, but am still looking for a nanny job now, so I can have a weekly income coming in.   A lovely woman called me today from Tenafly, and may want me to watch her kids in the summer and the school year.  The summer is long hours, which would be fine, because I need the money so.  It would maybe allow me to save enough to get to see Teal, as I still want to see her.
                                                   
My life was so different last year, when I was so high going to all of her workshops.  I haven't been to one in 10 months, wow, almost a year, and I feel it.  I feel less connected, less energized, and lonely.  I hope things turn out the way I want them to, we get what we focus on right?  Well, I have been focusing on those homes of mine on the water filled with lots of loved ones, becoming an author, and help change the world!  One Love at a time!  I love you, all of you, whoever you are.  Don't forget, you are wonderful, you are beautiful, you are enough!!
Namaste