Sad Waking up Alone, Again

I am not happy waking up alone today, realizing I really want to live with someone, with a honey, an awesome, kind, loving giving man.  Waking up alone is so lonely.  All of these new feelings are going through me, now that I feel "safe" here and am settling in.  Now I do not have to concentrate on finding a place to live, so my mind is free in other ways. I have been going to be late, and waking somewhat later, but still feeling so tired and in pain.  I wonder when it will all end, the feelings I have of loneliness, and the pain in my body.  I really need some girlfriends too, I wish I could call a friend and have them come visit me today, its a day I need to connect with someone, someone close to me that I love.  
 I wonder why it is always about the money.  I still have to figure out how to make more money this month, to be able to pay all of my bills.  No, I am not worried yet, but I just know I need to focus on other ways to bring in financial abundance.  I realize now this place is too small for me, and I do not like to live on top of the landlords, I can hear everything they say, they wouldn't allow my daughter to bring her dog over for a small time, and other things bother me.  I laugh as it seems as each place I get to, brings forth new desires, larger and bigger than before!  So, that is pretty cool, because I have been manifesting all of it.  I now want my large home, my beautiful home on the water, filled with loved ones.  I am not going to ask how, I am just saying that I can not live here for very long, only a few months, and want my home on the water now.  Now as in this year, now as in a few months, and how this will happen I do not know, and I will not ask!                            


I am going to create a flyer first for Oracle Card Readings, and try to offer this service at local Coffee Shops weekly or monthly.  This is something I can control, and work weekend nights, and truly help others, along with helping myself creating financial abundance. 

I also want to teach some children's yoga classes somewhere.  Either running my own class in a facility somewhere, or at some Nursery Schools.  I need to make a flyer for this as well, and drop it off at some Nursery Schools.

And the energy work, and Donna Eden Energy work I learned as well, I want to get out there.  I thought of going to a Chiropractor and asking to borrow their space from 1:00 - 3:00 while they close for lunch.  And, they can also advertise for me at their office as a new service they are providing.  Okay, Universe, I am leaving it for you to decide, which is the first I should do, that will bring in instant money to pay my bills, and money to buy a beautiful home for myself this year.  
If the Universe knows my wants, and I do not have to know the "hows", then I should be able to sit back and watch it all happen.  I should be able to watch my books being published, a publisher should just pop into my life, because that is how this Universe works, it's called, synchronicity.  People walk into your life for reasons, to help you accomplish your goals, the desires you set out.  I have plenty of desires, sometimes I feel too many because I can not concentrate on all of them at once.  My first dream now, is to publish the books I have created, my children's book, and the adult book I am working on by blogging constantly.  My adult book is, "My Spiritual Journey to Self Love".  The book is positive, well sort of.  My emotions have been up and down, so that is what you will find.  A positive outlook on realizing I can create my future and what I want.  Along with the sadness, and tears, of the feelings going on within myself.

So, here I go on my way to create my future now!! Wishing you peace and love always!