Saturday before my Birthday

I did make plans today to see two of my sister in laws, my one girlfriend, and my two daughters for dinner tonight for my birthday. I felt so stranded after the move, and realized how much more support I needed and didn't have.  It was only my niece, her boyfriend and I, and I usually do not lift anything.  But this time, we all worked our butts off, and they are not use to moving like my children and I are.  The three of us were so tired by 7:00 pm, we couldn't even carry the rest of the boxes up the stairs, having to leave them for my son when he came.  

I was confused as to why my children didn't want to help this time, but I think they are so drained from everything, and feel they just can't deal with it now.  I have to respect that and try to understand and not take it personally as I always do.  But, it is hard, when I woke up on Sunday with a house filled with boxes and being all alone made me break down in tears. This is too much, too much for me to deal with, unpacking and having to live alone.  
                                           

Why do I feel I have not many people in my life who support me?  Why do I feel I would always be there for them, and it is not reciprocated?  Ughh, I love them all so much, and I know everyone cares and is so busy, but I am feeling so alone and unsupported now.  
I started packing my home in October and that was so draining emotional, and I did it all alone.  I was so sad, and had no one there to help me through that.   I do not want to do stuff like this alone anymore,  I am asking God and the Universe to send me people in my life who can help support me.  To be left alone, here in this new space, alone without my children, and alone to unpack along with my body suffering so much in pain, is almost too much for me to take care of.  Unpacking takes days, and it is physically and emotionally draining. My body is aching, the spasms in my upper back never seem to go away, I wake up crying in tears from the pain, and go to bed the same way. I feel so alone, with no support or help around.  

But, I am going to see my two sister in laws and best friend for dinner tonight for my birthday, along with my daughters.  I planned this myself, which is a first and plan on doing this every year.  I usually am with my children, but forget about enjoying dinner with my friends too.  It is a good day to have plans for yourself and to look forward to a fun loving night with my family!  Thank you for this.  

It is awesome to have my own place, I just can't enjoy it yet due to all this pain my body is feeling.  I went out and bought three huge plants for only $12 each, and they transformed the entire place.  They are my friends now, they will provide me with unconditional love and support each and every day!  
Namaste