It's a day to just do nothing. I am so achy, tired, and have no desire at all to pack anything, so I haven't. Well, I did futz around in the spare room, organizing and packing up some art supplies. I know I will have plenty of time for that, my art work, when I move. I am okay about moving, when my daughters and I talk about their plans, its crazy, we all can't believe it and want to pinch each other. My one daughter tells me today, her younger brother wants her to cook a pot of tomato sauce the first Sunday they move in! Sunday is family day in our home, always has been even since I can remember in High School with my brothers and their girlfriends. Then, when I met my ex I remember always being there for Sunday dinners. And now, we always have them here in this house, and my daughters get upset if their brother can not make it. This summer was different though, me being at the beach or running around visiting, and the girls not cooking.
I still don't know where I am living yet. I waited for George to call and he called yesterday and I was in class all day. I started looking myself for places to buy, and realized this community I was renting from, is half the price if you buy a place there! Wow, that's a big difference, and I have said all along, I am tired of renting and paying my landlord for his home, his investment, and making him money. I have given my landlord a great deal of money in four years, so if you are renting, think seriously about buying, it is possible, put it out into the Universe, and bam, there it goes! That is what I have done, and the Universe is sending me a place to buy, and a way to buy it. I will let you know what it is as soon as I work out all of the details. I am excited about this, if I could have my own place I would be so much happier. I need a home to call my own, now. And, then next year when my finances are more abundant, I will buy another home, and rent this out, an investment finally.
This entire thing is draining for me today, too much going on at one time, and my home is still a mess, boxes everywhere and so much to pack. It gets overwhelming. I have been cleansing which is well needed. I still need to find a place to live, I want to get my business started and rent space somewhere, I want to finish these children's books I started, and get to the children in the School systems. That's all! You think there's enough time to get it all done?
Then, there goes the story about time,which I still cant grasp. Time is linear, it's all happening at the same time, the past, the future. I know, sounds crazy, but true, check it out for yourself! I still don't understand how it's all happening at the same time, but I will soon, it's just a matter of perception.
I gotta go and lay down, my upper back and neck is in such a spasm I can not even sit up anymore! Help Universe, help me realize what's going on with my pain and my body. I will lay down and sit with it.
Namaste all Day! <3
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