The Awakening Fair

Hello there ~
So, today I went to an "Awakening Fair", the same thing as a Mind, Body, and Soul Expo, just another name for it.  I wanted to be a vendor for this one, but by the time I called to do Angel Card Readings, they were already booked.  Evidently vendors come back year after year.  
I really went to see an old friend, an artist who I met at a fair a few years ago.  She was always very lovely, and would whisper words of encouragement to me on how I needed to "take care of myself".  And she was totally right, and I have been working on this.  But, this time when I saw her, she was happy at first, and then when she asked how I was, and I replied with, "Great, I have written a few children's books, and just need them illustrated, and I am writing a book on my journey to self love, and my daughters are moving out", and I am going on and on in joy about my new life, and my dreams, she started to change her behavior.  There was  a shift in her energy for sure.  Instead of opening up to love, she pulled back, seeming somewhat annoyed.  Watching her I was becoming confused, 
because each time I became excited about something, she pulled back and sank.  I saw it in her body language, she was sinking lower and lower, pulling back more, until she shut me out.  She did not want to talk to me, or make eye contact with me.  This was really a shocker for me, I was so confused.  I have been becoming more "use to" others not being able to accept my new energy, or vibrate with it, and react with some type of attitude I don't understand.  The energy I was feeling from her was like jealousy, jealousy and intimidation.  Hmm, was I making her feel this way by my mere presence?  If so, this is totally crazy, because she is such a beautiful, loving soul.  One who is here to teach about love, and her paintings of Mary, Goddesses and all she paints, are simply magnificent!  

My vibration is changing, and things are happening faster now!  The way my energy shifts after I get to see my Spiritual Mentor and Leader, Teal Swan, is awesome.  My energy shifts its so crazy, and It seems as if I do not resonate with the same people, and I can not be near someone who has a really low vibration.  It's amazing when you start to "feel" this, and be aware of this.  Because now I realize so many things.  I realize how people my entire life have tried to take my energy, I use to call them leaches, like they just latch onto you and need you every second of every day.  I can remember feeling this way from some of the girls in High School that needed to call you 24/7, and could not function alone.  I was always strong and independent growing up, and never liked friends that become clingy.  People are still the same way, but now I am aware of this and understand what's going on.  They may even form "attachments" to you, like some have done to me.  If you rest and close your eyes and ask yourself the question if anyone has any attachments to you, a name may come to your mind.  If it does you can try to feel where the attachment is, and remove it from yourself and the other person.  Once removed destroy the cord any way you would like to.  I usually burn mine in a roaring fire.  Then the wound should be healed by pouring light into it, and then I stitch it up with kisses! This is all visual, of course.  Visualization is such a key in transforming your life, and I never realized how good I was at it.  In College, I was a gymnast, and I would visualize my routine so many times in my head for the fun of it, and I always did well in competition.  This was way before they taught us about the advantages of visualization.  I use this technique as much as I can especially in manifesting what I want.  

Anyway, I got off the subject of the woman I know and her behavior.  Now, I did not treat this woman any differently than I ever have, I was loving and happy to see her.  After her energy shifted and she kept pulling back, she didn't even want to talk to me, and she actually didn't.  It was hard for her to look into my eyes.  I was feeling very uncomfortable and tried to keep a conversation going but she completely stopped talking, it was obvious she did not want to talk to me any longer.  Instead of getting the hint and leaving quickly, I was so confused, so I started to look at her artwork and compliment her about her work, he artwork is magnificent.  She is truly a lovely, beautiful woman, I don't know what happened here.  Realizing we are all energy and it's all about our vibration, has opened my eyes up to many things.  Things I do not get and understand, like why someone would act totally different because their energy shifted.  It feels as if she went from loving me when I was low, sad and down. to not liking me due to my confidence and love within my self. 

I sat in one only one lecture, a lovely woman named Susan Greif, Art Mends Hearts.  She spoke about our own inner artist, how art can help heal us by drawing our emotions, and she taught a meditation explaining to ask the pain in your body if there is something it wants to tell you.  She asked for a volunteer and I was chosen.  She asked my neck the same questions my Shaman asked me, the same meditation I have been doing for months.  Questions like, "what do you want to tell me?"  and "what does your pain want you to do".  Feelings of being burdened came to me, and I felt I needed love, comfort and support.  This is so very true.  I have been struggling for the last ten years, being a single mom, struggling financially and emotionally, it has been difficult.  I can see where my pain feels worse when I am triggered by feelings of powerlessness, and I am blamed by others for things that are not my fault.  The pain is deep, and I am working on it when it jumps up at me, when I see the triggers in my face.  
This process is a great way to get to the route of your pain.  But, it may not be a quick fix, I have been working on this, and it is still a process.  I realize everything is a process, and we always seem to want a quick fix.  But it is the journey that it is all about, not the end result only.  Pain is emotional, and my pain is very deep and very old, maybe that is why I still am working on feeling relief.  
I came home very filled with love, in a nice high vibration.  I realized a lot being there this time.  I realized I am now ready to shine my light and teach others what I have learned.  I have been a teacher my entire life, I have always loved research work on subjects that interested me, and I have always loved to share my knowledge with others.  Now, instead of just being an Angel Card Reader, I will promote my Healing work.  "You Are The Light", the business I created to help heal others.  I consider myself a "Life Coach and Healer", helping to heal others through Angel and Oracle Card Readings, Reiki, Essential Oils and Crystals.  My sessions of 45 minutes contain all of these modalities to help facilitate in a healing.  I will get a vendor table, and give a quick lecture of my work!  Wow, how excited I am about this, finally being at the point where I am ready to teach what I have learned.  I will always be a student, but I am at the point where I can help others where they are as well.  I am excited for this, and as soon as I move and get settled, I will reach out to the Mind, Body, and Soul Expos, and get my butt moving! Yay, the power of self love, ahhh! <3<3<3  
Namaste all Day!!