Feeling so Disconnected, but new relief to a home!

Boy, have my feelings been going up and down crazy.  I have been feeling sad lately, missing my soul family, I can't even explain it.  I'm feeling like I have so many different realities now, which I guess I do.  They are not from here, this place I am in now, this awake state.  They are in my travels to other cities, and in my dreams connecting.  But today I have a big sense of feeling disconnected from them, and everyone, everything.  I suppose me moving in two weeks has something to do with it.  I have plans to be with my Spiritual Mentor in December, but am worried about where I will stay now, due to the silly drama some of the girls are having.  I do not want to be involved, nor take sides.  I feel we each should handle each other alone, very privately, and not have to tell anyone else our problems with the other people we encounter.  We are all struggling right now in this spiritual community, and are doing the best we can do.  When we realize that we can let go of the pain they are causing us by their words, and realize they are only suffering and we are a trigger to them.  

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Walk away, go our own way and avoid them, that is my advice.  That is what I have been doing, staying away from whoever I do not resonate with, the ones who have hurt me with their words, and surround myself with the ones who shower me with love.  Love is all there is, and it is very true.  I finally realized one of the girls who went after me and said some hurtful things to me for no reason at all, really just wanted love and attention to me.  Because we did not connect that one day, she wrote some things to me that were not very cool, and were hurtful.  Of course I was upset and hurt, feeling I was never nasty to her, and not needing this from anyone in this spiritual community.  

Then, weeks later, I realized she was just hurt.  Hurt because she wanted to connect and we did not.  Of course she has free will and could have started to talk to me and did not, instead she blamed me.  I wish her and anyone else that our paths have chosen a different road for now, much love and light on their way, until we meet again for sure!  
I am so very grateful to have found this community for love.  Even with the drama, the Love totally conquers all, you just have to watch who you give your energy to.  I know who I love, I know who I am drawn to innately, and that is all I need to know with them. 

But, I do have awesome news I found out yesterday, the hoarders moved out of where I want to live and I can have the place!  You have no idea how relieved I am.  Although I put total trust in the Universe to put me where I needed to be, that faith was a blessing to have.  I have been focusing on envisioning myself living in the place, along with all of my furniture and where I am going to place it.  And, look, it's happened and I am thrilled.  I am so looking forward to having loving friends and family in my space finally, after all these years.  We use to entertain as a family constantly, every child's birthday, adult's birthday, holiday, every Sunday, boy we were always entertaining and enjoying our families.  Those years are long gone, so I am grateful and thrilled to be able to start doing this again.  Thank you Universe, once again, for coming through for me!

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So, November 8th, yep, a Saturday I go.  I am going to ask my girlfriend from High School if she will sleep over the night I move in.  If she did I feel I would wake up feeling like I was in High School again with her, and I would be like, okay great what do I want to do today?  With no worries, no stress, just following my joy each and everyday, wow, what relief that feels like already.  I like it, I truly, truly like it.  Just allowing the energy of money to flow into my life any way it would like, to pay my bills and allow me to buy a home.  Or have someone else send this all to me, either way, I'm good!
I love you all, I hope you all find your way into the light each and every day!