I finally got to take the trip to
see my girlfriend down in Manahawkin. She lives with her brother on the
lagoon and they lost the home in the storm. They have only been in a few
months, but it is a brand new home, raised, of course, and beautiful! I
was so very happy for them, as her bother had a scare this year, a brain
aneurysm which required immediate surgery. And he survived, what a
miracle of will. So, it was great to see him as well, safe and sound in
his new home.
My
girlfriend and I hit the beach, even though it wasn't sunny all day, ready to
rain. The beach is always so relaxing, and so easy to talk and unload.
I always unload to my friend, and she finally unloaded to me. I am
grateful she shared many things with me, so I can be there for her as she
always is to me. And, she needs the support as well, as we all do.
I
realized, she is in a total different energy field then me, her, her brother
and son. They all live in the space of "The chain of pain", as
the Hicks state in their book, Sara I (an awesome book for sure). They
use an analogy of chains of pain or joy. There are two chains, the chain
of pain, and the chain of joy. What do you want to feel, good or bad?
If we want to feel good, then we have to think good thoughts, thoughts
that make us feel good. So, this is obviously the "Chain of
Joy". And, of course, we attract what we put out, our energies
change, and bam, we are constantly living in the Chain of Joy!! I loved this
analogy, it totally resonated with me right away. To know that we have so
much control. Control of our lives, control of our thoughts, control of
our future, because our thoughts create our lives, our future.
So then,
what is the "Chain of Pain?" Easy guess, always worrying,
always looking for the worse to happen in every situation, always twisting
reality to the negative, seeing the bad, etc. So many of us live in that
state, as I have had many times as well, but no longer, I jump out of that
quicker each time. The more we complain and focus on what is going wrong,
the more it happens, the more the Universe brings it to us! My friends
who are this was do not even realize this, even though we were sitting together
and they were explaining how all the bad always happens to their place!
The wind blows their stuff away, etc. They even made comments how
it's only their place. Do you think that is why? Because they are
on the chain of pain, not the chain of joy. I would love to teach them
this theory and evaluate the synchronicity that occurs if they followed
through, what a great experiment to run.
My friend
and I spent a few hours on the beach, as the sun ran in and out of the clouds
overhead. It was a nice day giving us the chance to connect and relax.
I finally got to listen to things she was struggling with now, because
she is always there listening to my stuff, helping me clear my head to make so
many decisions.
We got
back to the house hungry from the beach. I guess we cooked because she
had the impression I didn't enjoy going out to dinner, but I do. I do
love it as long as there is food I can eat. But, I realized after I left,
that when we brought up what to do for dinner, she was hesitant, and said we
could cook. Which it was late already, and we still had to go to the food
store. See, I tried to be considerate, and let her do what she wanted, so
I didn't say, hey, we can go to dinner if you want. I just went along
with it. We didn't get done eating until 8:00, and we were expecting a
storm. They were very worried about the furniture flying away, and I was
worried about driving home in the pouring rain on the Parkway and the Turnpike
and not being able to see! The roads are so poorly maintained that you
cannot even see the white lines on the road in the rain, and many spots do not
even have any lines, and we pay to drive on these roads.
So, I
said my goodbyes right after we ate, wishing I could have just stayed the night
and left in the morning, not wanting to be stuck in the storm, driving two
hours home in the dark!!
So, what
happened? Yep, the storm came soon after, so bad we couldn't see on the
road, and I got off the Parkway as soon as I could and took a different way
back up North. I got in at 11:00 pm, taking me two and a half hours to
get home. I was exhausted, and went straight to bed, telling myself I am
not going to be driving so much this summer like usual. It is so not fun
for me anymore. I was bummed and drained.
Being with them made me realize how much I have changed, and how I can see others more clearly. It is so important to focus on the good, being in the state of gratitude as much as you can remember too, because it totally does make a difference. They do not seem to be in a state of gratitude even though they have a brand new home on the lagoon, and he is alive, knowing he chose life and created a miracle. So, what does that mean? That it is hard for us to change? That we each wake up when it is our time? I'm not sure, but I am glad I am learning to be in a state of gratitude more often, especially when I have no income now, no job, and basically no home. I do have a place to stay for a few more weeks, until the family comes home. My most recent wonderful, amazing boss, offered me her home to stay in while they were gone for five weeks, and longer if I needed to! That is gratitude right there!! I just know I won't feel so comfortable here with them, so I need to find a place for August to move to.
So, I learned a lot visiting my friend, seeing life differently. A funny thing happened after having dinner with her, my stomach hurt the entire ride home. I realized it was the energy in their home, their energy and it was affecting me! There I go again, being sensitive with other's energy, forgetting to put on my Young Living essential oils, forgetting to breathe in the negative energy and transmute it into the earth, forgetting to expand the purple flame out of my heart and into my space! Always forgetting to do these things I have been taught. Her son's energy was so intense, he was sweating and couldn't relax, and basically got up quickly after he ate and ran out. He has energy like my daughter, very intense, and doesn't breathe deep, preventing relaxation and many other things. My daughter is definitely calming down, I think her boyfriend helps with this, and being aware of her energy around her dog, calming energy for sure. The energy always seems to affect me, and I always seem to forget that!! I forget to pray each morning for the Angels and my Guides to walk with me each day, especially when I wake up not home. And, I don't even have a home now!! Just a temporary place to lay my head, but I am grateful for that! Lol
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