I just spoke with Balboa Press, and Kim, my new publishing consultant. I have just started to put this into motion, becoming a published author, not just writing and writing for years. I am really excited about this, I have been the past week now. I just got off the phone with Balboa, and made my first payment of $408.34, who thought you could start to publish your book with such a little investment? I know by just doing this, and signing a contract with them, will tell the Universe, yes, I am ready. No more talk, now it is time to do it, get it done, succeed and finally become the author I am meant to become. I am truly excited, it feels as if my life has already changed drastically, my energy has already shifted to one of being a writer, an author, legitimately too. My kids have heard me telling them this for years, that I was going to write a book, and now it is going to happen, the energy is already flowing, I can feel it. No more nanny work for money, for a living, but something else that I love to do, and can really become abundant at doing, in so many ways. My life will change so much, and be so different, and I will have the finances to have whatever I dream of having, having the life I am truly meant to live. Ahh, I can already feel it happening, everything is already changing.
I have already been working on putting all my pages together to submit to Balboa, my manuscript. I started reading my first few blog entries, and I started in the fall of 2013, I didn't realize it was that long ago. It is so interesting to read back on, because I have already changed since then. I have about 250 blog entries, I am sure that is enough for a book. My goal is to read all of the posts within a month, and correct the changes that need corrected. I want this to happen fast, no more time just waiting to get it done. I have been writing pretty much my entire life, so this is way past do. I have always wanted to write a book about my life, but was not ready I suppose until now. This is my priority for sure, and I still do not have a nanny job yet, so I am very free to get it done, and I am. I already have gone through over thirty pages. The hardest part I see is sitting at the computer so long to type and write. My back starts to ache so much, I finally rest after hours by laying flat on the ground, relaxing my upper back, giving it a change to rest. And the pain immediately runs to it.
My children are coming for dinner tomorrow night, as I want them to come for dinner one night before I leave this borrowed space my previous bosses home. How grateful I am to her, being here, in this wonderful space, has given me the opportunity to trust my heart, and do what I truly want to do, and have wanted to do for years. The energy here is great, the backyard and deck, is nestled in the trees, along with a naturally flowing brook in the back. It is a great space to create, you can feel it, and I am sure much has been created in this space. They both are entrepreneurs, doing what they love, giving back, working from home, successful and happy. I think being in this higher energy space, other than the room I was going to stay in, has totally helped shift my energy, and know I can accomplish my dreams, especially my dream of becoming an author now. So, I figured we would celebrate together tomorrow night, my three children and I, and maybe some of their friends if they can come. I miss the Sunday dinners, each Sunday my daughter would make the best pot of tomatoe sauce, and we would have pasta, lasagna and such. And summers are meant to have family and friends over every weekend to celebrate life, celebrate each other, and enjoy the moment. Look at what I had and I didn't even know it, did I take so much for granted, I did. Don't look at your life now, and see what's in your face. Can you give that person love instead of complaint? Can you give yourself love, instead of pain? Love and forgiveness from the past, it is done, you did the best you could, we all did. We did not know any better, if we did we would have done better! But, truly it never is too late, never too late to open your heart to love, to open to receive the love from others, the love that is inside of your self. For I have a feeling it is so deep, so blissful, it will sweep us away to high heaven and beyond. I can not wait, I have been asking the question since seventh grade, what is this all about? What are we here for? Finally I am learning to see some of the answers, but am still struggling with so much as well. I want life to be free and easy, for me, you, and all of us.
My wish for you is to follow your dreams, and never give up. What is the point for settling into a life we are not truly happy in? What is the point in waking up each morning not even wanting to get out of bed? What is the point worrying about everything and anything that "could" happen to you, that could go wrong? For what? Hell, we may as well be happy, and if we are not, figure out a way to be, figure out something else to do. Do what? Do what you truly love, what's in your heart, what makes you happy when you are doing it. And, turn it into work, turn it into a way to become financially abundant, and live. Truly live, in joy, and peace within ourselves, and happiness.
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