Woke up really early as I have been lately, by 7:00 am. It was rainy, I was achy, so I grabbed some ice for my neck and laid back in bed listening to Teal Swan's manifesting money meditation, as I need to change my energy in that department. I fell back to sleep after that meditation, and woke up all freaked out about my living situation.
I went to see my sister in law yesterday, to talk to her about living there a few months, until I get some spiritual work, and find someone to live with, hopefully by September. I had asked her if I could stay with her and my brother who have no children at home, if I could stay with them a month or two until I find a place to stay. It was nice to talk to her and feel the connection of family, which I am yearning for now due to being, feeling, and living all alone. I felt comforted to know, I would have a plan, somewhere to stay where I am loved and supported until I find a place to call home. I felt totally recharged, that is why I was so confused this morning when I was freaking out. I mean that gut feeling about never being able to change your life and get out of where you are. When I woke back up, I ran my ass out of bed, wanting to forget the misery I put myself into.
I didn't think anything would help, but decided to sit at the computer and get some work done, trying to forget everything. I called back a woman who phoned me for a nanny position, I am beginning to be open to this again. What else do I have now? If I am with a great family I do enjoy it, I become part of that family that I long to desire anyway, connection. Will that push aside the other work I want to do? I hope not, not sure, its just a new thought I had today, to be open to doing nanny work again. I would love a nanny job working two full days, that would be the best for me, so maybe that is what I will do, keep it open and keep looking. I just know I am here to do much more, touch so many lives, and do not want to just stay in a nanny position forever, but need some type of income now.
After finally getting motivated today, I went over a list on how to get clients for the work I want to do, energy healing, Angel card readings, children's yoga and Donna Eden Energy work! You would think with all of these love's I have, I could do one, or some, for financial abundance by now. That is why I am going to shoot for listening to these meditations daily, to change this stuff up, as I am now becoming very impatient over this, how we can get what we want, find our purpose when we go inside, let go, and accept the new! Teal Swan's workshop Sunday was all about this, about just jumping off that cliff, going for it, you have prepared enough! And that is how I truly feel!
I also want to open up a business, like I have been saying for a long time, and realized a Yoga Studio would be much easier, and quicker to open up then the Healing Center I want. Now, anything would be a great start, and I could offer different classes that aren't being offered around here, focus on children as well, and do workshops, classes there as well. Just would be a faster, quicker way to start me on my purpose, which is much more than I am dong now! I also got my Healing Energy/Reiki flyer accomplished today, major accomplishment for now! So, now after it's printed I will be going to some Chiropractor offices, maybe massage places as well, and try to have my services offered there. This gives me an instant place to do the work, and instant clients as well. Ask and you shall receive, offer and they will come, I am counting on the Universe to send me the clients that need my services, clients I can help heal, and in return will create financial abundance for me as well.
I know I am all over the place, that is how I feel. I do not have the problem of finding out what I love to do, as I have always loved so many things, had so many interests, hobbies, etc. For me, it is to choose one, just one to start with and start making money doing that. Of course, my first love is writing, getting my books done and out, getting my blog out there to all, and creating a book from it. Many years ago I had a reading by a healer who works with the Angels, and she told me Archangel Gabriel was over my shoulder, telling me to keep writing, and to write that book I want to write! That was at the time when I was writing in my journal all the time about my divorce, and all the corruption that was involved, and the pain and suffering I was experiencing because of that. Each time I went back on my journal to try to write the book, I cried, it was too hard to go back to every day to try to accomplish this. That is why after searching for happiness in my life when I realized I needed my own life because my children were spreading their wings to fly, I went on a journey of self love. My spiritual journey to self love as I called it, that is how this blog was created. I decided to journal all of it on a blog, so the book would already be written, instead of writing it all in a journal, then having to put it on paper. So much to try to accomplish, so much to focus on, I am starting to ask Source, God, the Universe, to show me which way to go. To tell me what I should start first, my priority here now, and of course a way to create financial abundance so I will never have to worry about paying my rent ever again, so I can buy the home I want on the water, and fill it with love! I'm going to take a visit to see my son at work again, as he is closing. It is awesome to have a space to see him at all the time, since he no longer lives with me!
Blessings and Healings to all of you! Don't ever give up, when low, reach out, don't cry and stay in and be alone like I have done to myself too much throughout my lifetime. Go, run, get out and connect with someone, as you are so loved, and God, the Universe will send someone to you to mend your heart today! I promise, ask and you shall receive!
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