Christmas Holiday 2014

Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah ~
So, the day is gone, but not the love!  The love this Holiday season brings is beautiful, such a wonderful thing that can last as long as we want it to.  It is a time to feel that love, the love of family that surrounds you every day, the love of friends, face book friends, soul mates, all of the wonders that walk this life.  
I have a large family, I am one of seven children and have six brothers.  We have always had large Holiday family gatherings, and I love it.  It is so nice to be around the comfort of your family, even if issues have come up in the past.  My day was so wonderful, having the chance to talk to my nieces who now have turned into "young women"! I am so very proud of them, and love them all very much, and they are all so gorgeous!  My niece was there who has three boys who are my great nephews!  I am a great Aunt nine times, my four nieces all had boys! Ha! These boys I only see for Christmas, I actually don't even know why.  When my niece had her third son I was making plans to visit him, and she just never followed through, obviously not wanting me to come, and that left us not in touch.  I would text her here and there to see him, and then I finally gave up, and she never reached out to me again.  It's okay now, but I was upset at first because I love the children and love to be close to all of them, as I am my other great nephews, nieces and nephews.  So, it is awesome to see them, they are such sweet boys, and thank the Lord for the little ones at Christmas!
My sister in law who had Christmas this year was totally drained.  I could see it all over her face.  She is a very strong Polish woman, and I love her so!  She is so loving, kind and giving, and my brother did well choosing her.  But this year, I could see how tired she was, and she likes to do everything herself in the kitchen, instead of letting you help her.  My other sister in law and I helped, but she tends to just do things herself.  She probably totally would have loved help earlier, although she does have a daughter that could help, but I doubt she does.  My sister in law tends to give too much, like so many of us women, instead of asking others for help, even her own daughter.  But, chipping in and helping as a child in a family is truly important, so they can learn the skills, and know how important it is to chip in and help when you need to!
The brother I am staying with made some comment insulting me by thanking my sister in law for something and not me.  I actually just realized it now, how the comment was not nice at all, and I am staying with him.  What is wrong with people, family?  Why do we make comments that hurt others feelings?  Is it that they are a mirror in my face, reflecting what needs to be healed within myself?  So, what would that be for me?  I don't even know with this issue what it would be.  It seems to me that I trigger a lot in others, and they get short or nasty with me, and I am wondering why.  But, as the story goes that I am learning, they are reflecting my "shadows", the parts in me I do not see because they weren't acceptable to see as a child, put down upon, and then we let go of it to be loved by them.  They are parts that want to integrate with us and help us to become whole.  It seems like it is so much work, work on yourself, work in life, work on helping others, it seems like it shouldn't be that way.  I guess I could turn it around to there is so much love to give yourself to help heal by comforting yourself with your shadow aspect, and allow and accept it in.  And turn around the work in life to be the love in life that allows us to shine our lights so bright and give to the world what it needs.  The work on helping others is a gift we have, to stay love and connected to all.  Yes, what a nice, different way to look at things, like a breath of fresh air!
It was so nice to see all of my family, I am blessed with a large family.  I wish I had taken a picture of all the children as we do each year, but this year no one mentioned it.  I thought of it at the end of the day, but never opened my mouth to get it done!  I don't even know why, for some reason it feels as if I am "bothering" everyone!  But, that picture is one of my favorite ones, all year round!  I will never let it pass again.  And the pictures someone took for me of my children and I came out very fuzzy, two times, on the cellphone.  I should have used my real camera.  I would love a really good camera again, like we always had before, and start taking pictures again.  There were years after our divorce when my children were teenagers, where I barely have any pictures of them.  Most of the pictures now are on line, but at least they are easy to get to have developed.  I want to make a few books from them, of the holidays, vacation, etc.  I started a project when I was leaving my house, and was going through all of our pictures from my kids childhood.  I have four large bins of pictures, that need to be organized, and hung, and I can not wait to get to them.  All of this is motivation to get my own place.  Universe, send me financial abundance in an easy way!  Easy lessons to learn on a loving,  kind path ahead.  Thank you, Amen.  And financial abundance from doing what I love, and from others as well!  I am open to receive this New Year, because it is about giving and receiving, and knowing abundance can come from others as well!! 
Happy Holidays to all!