Hello Everyone
I have been running around Christmas shopping the last few days, after I am on the computer all morning looking for work. I will do my work in the morning, then leave in the late afternoon so I can give my brother all of his space. I am getting back in at 10:00, 11:00. Today I left at 1:00, and got in at 11:00 pm, too late for me. To be gone all day is too much on my body, the running around, my muscles in my upper back spasm up, and I am in so much pain. But, I have to deal with it now, still loving myself along the way. I will know in the future to make sure I can go through one thing, rest, and then move on.
I decided to do something that makes me happy, so I wrapped for Christmas, and this always makes me so happy! It helps me to focus on gratitude, which in turns keeps me at a higher vibration. I am so grateful to have the money to be able to buy my loved ones gifts. I am so grateful to have loved ones to buy gifts for! And I even packed a box for Teal, and my family there, each with special gifts. Mostly each one received some type of crystal, and this brought joy to my heart. To give back to her, and them, as they have given to me. What they have given me doesn't even compare to this, or to anything I can do for them. The best thing I can do, which is what we all can do, is to keep working on ourselves. To accepting who we are, and what we need to work on, and just do it. No more denial, no more blaming others, it is time to look inside. And someday, I will be working along side her, healing the children, like I want to help do!
I am so grateful for this Holiday Season now, as it gives me joy, love and faith. It is a time of the year of abundance and giving, and I sure am a part of it. Our hearts are more open during this time of giving, and receiving, and we are spreading so much more love out to others and into the Universe. It is truly a magical time of year for me, and it always has been. Christmas always has been a time of love, happiness, giving and joy, and I am so grateful for this now, because I truly need it. I love to hear the Christmas songs that arrive this time of year, they truly lift my heart as well. I use to decorate my home so much, and look forward to next year when I will be able to again.
I enjoyed shopping this year for my children, especially since I am not living with them, it makes me feel more connected to them. It's so fun to be out and not know what to buy for anyone, and then shop and see some many things they would love. I did not feel stressed about shopping at all this year, because I had so much time due to not wanting to be in my brothers home at all.
The feelings here are worse, feeling so not wanted here is starting to get to me, and its so sad, it makes me cry. I can't wait until I can figure this out, and be somewhere where I can be at peace.
Happy Holidays to all
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